Saturday, September 18, 2010

I Remember Virginia

September 18th, 2009 was arguably one of the worst days of my life. On this day, exactly one year ago, I remember the events that happened.

I remember taking that last-minte, overnight flight to Virginia that landed us in a hospital in a small town. I remember being eager to meet baby Jack, as we would name him. I remember crying for hours in the hotel room when she changed her mind. I remember the excitement of maybe getting him again, and the pain and ultimate heartache that followed after a week of chasing that little dream.

But, I also remember the good. I remember, while in Virginia, getting a call about a little girl who would be born in 3 weeks. I remember being so tired and worn from the loss of Jack, but the glimmer of hope we had for this baby girl.

So, Virginia, I remember you for bad and for good. I know, without a doubt, that you were part of the Plan from the beginning. You are where we felt a lot of pain, and you were where we first heard of the beginning of our joy.

But also, Virginia, I have no intention of ever seeing you again.

4 comments:

Jenny said...

There were many tears shed for you and prayers sent up on your behalf. It was painful for all of us who love you. So happy to see this much happiness in your life just one year later. We love you guys so much!

Jeff, Christa, and Evelyn said...

You're a stronger woman than I'll ever be. It's wonderful to see you so happy! Megan belongs with you and no one else!

Adam and Shari Crawford said...

I remember reading about your Virginia trip and just sobbing.... I'm SO glad that trial lead you to little Megan :)

mikensi jung said...

yay for baby megan! boo for the heartache in virginia!